Dear ROB readers,I was Raped by my sister's husband.

Hi am 18 yrs old and just over a year ago I was raped by my sisters husband. One night I was at a party and got drunk (yes I know I am under age and stuff but it happens). Most of my friends were drinking so I called him ( my sisters husband) to pick me up. They are both 28 and really cool and always made it clear if I need a drive to call one of them. I dont remember much just him helping into the car and then I remember laying on the bed in my sisters house and he was touching me (fingering me and stuff). When I woke up the next morning I had no panties on and I could kinda remember him kissing my neck and touching me but I thought I must have been dreaming because I never imangined he would do that. About a month later I was at another party drinking but not drunk and I was staying at my sisters because my parents were out of town. I had a friend drop me off, my sister was working so I went to bed. I woke up later to him on top of me, kissing me with his hands in my pants. I tried pushing him away and thats when he got mad. He called me a slut and that I didnt seem to mind "last time", he then raped me. It was really hot outside and the window was open a neighbour heard me screaming and called the police. He was arrest. My sister has told me many times that she was sorry and that it wasnt my fault but I notice her looking at me like I am an evil person. It has caused a huge distance between us. What can we do to get over all of this.